Tuesday 13 May 2008

Stuck like glue.

I'm stuck.
I'm stuck, I'm stuck, I'm stuck.

I have about a week to complete something which currently exists only as a concept floating around my cranium. I'm considering quitting college, but with less than a month left to go (I think), it seems rather ridiculous. I suppose I just know I'll fail if I don't muster up an incredible amount of motivation to catch up. And nobody wants to fail. Quitting is easier.

My brain has melted. It's seeping through all my pores and evaporating into the air. There's going to be nothing left soon. I'm definatly stuck.

I feel like I'm somehow not a real human being. I'm just some entity hovering around, watching all the genuine people doing genuine people things, getting on with their lives.

I should be EXCITED about all the possibilities opening up to me. But inexplicably I feel like I'm becoming more and more enclosed.

I've forgotten the source of this quote, but I remember hearing someone say once; "I wish I was where I was when I was wishing I was here.". It seems pretty apt.

I hate feeling stuck.

Saturday 3 May 2008

Bevy botheration.

I'm going to quit boozing. Or at least cut down.

I feel so so so icky today.

That is all.